Today has been an emotional day. Nothing quite prepares you for the sight of your daughter's headstone for the first time. It was breathtakingly beautiful, but so very permanent. I am so excited that your spot on earth is now marked for eternity, but it brought back a flood of emotions which took me right back to that very first day. I still miss you with every minute that passes and think of you with every breath that I take.
I have been battling with the insurance company on a daily basis over the same claims. I don't understand why things can't just be simple. You can never talk to the same person twice. It is all resolved when you get off the phone, and then they send you a letter to tell you that nothing will change. Then the process starts all over again. I am so tired of dealing with all of this and I pray that it is truly resolved this time.
I just called for the second time about ordering your birth certificate. The lady on the phone said that there is a good chance that your birth was never reported since you only lived for an hour and a half. My response is that you LIVED. Period!! You were born, and you died and I want for you to have what all other babies get. I took a chance and paid the $19.00 to receive a copy knowing that I might just get a letter saying that one doesn't exist. I won't take no for an answer though, you will have a birth certificate if I have to drive to Frankfort and type it up myself.
Your dad and I are leaving tomorrow for a long, and much needed, weekend of rest and relaxation at Faith's Lodge. I am so excited to get away from it all with people who understand. I met Andrea through an internet message board shortly after we learned that you would not live. She lost her daughter Annabelle to Anencephaly about 6 months before you were born. She is the only other person who I have come to know through this journey that carried to term knowing that her baby would die, and she has been a huge support to me. I am so excited to spend the weekend with her and her husband as well as 6 other couples who have been in our shoes. I would really appreciate it if you could send us some sunshine so that we can get some beach and boating time in.
I love you baby,
Mom
